A Matter of Grace:
I stood barefoot on the fiery bed of coals. I peered downward, waving the smoke away from my sizzling feet and saw huge, red, oozing blisters. I trudged on. Just as I was about to step into a meadow of cool, dewy, green grass I woke up with a start.
With clenched, aching jaws, drenched in sweat and tears, I sat up in the bed. If only the dream had lasted long enough for me to feel the cooling moisture of that meadow. However, there would be no more sleep that night and I wondered how I would live with this agony for the rest of my life.
Coping with Diabetes had always been a challenge, but this was far beyond anything I could have prepared for. I was on a low sugar, low fat diet and exercised every day. With God’s help, I had succeeded in controlling the blood sugar levels but nothing relieved the fierce, burning pain caused by the dying nerves in my feet. The damage had already been done. My heart was broken and I couldn’t believe God wanted me to live this way.
I called on my Pastor who also lives with chronic pain. Together, we called upon God. As my Pastor prayed for me, I was aware of His power and presence. His Holy Spirit filled me and I knew I was to simply keep trusting in Him. He would give me grace for each day if I would walk in faith. So, it truly was a matter of grace.
Later that morning I sat down to read my Bible. “And being in an agony, he prayed more earnestly: and his sweat was as great drops of blood falling to the ground.” (Luke 22: 44) Those words reminded me of the anguish my Lord suffered at Calvary. As I continued to read, His words were like a cool, dewy meadow to my soul. I am a Child of God and He is able. When I reach Heaven, there will be no more pain. Until then, I will rest in the palm of His hand.