The Pity Party:
Last night I threw myself a pity party and no one attended. I was feeling alone and abused due to an issue I have. I won’t go into details about the precise issue…we all have them. I couldn’t sleep so I cried all night. This morning I finally remembered to pray and the Holy Spirit spoke to my heart that I didn’t have to feel the way I did; that I could have gone into God’s Word and prayed for peace. He reminded me that I wasn’t really ever alone and that I need to behave like a child of God.
Why did I not pick up God’s Word and seek Him? I did sort of pray but it felt like my prayers were hitting the ceiling and my prayers were all about feeling abused how others were blaming me for something I didn’t do. I should have prayed in the Spirit since God says that doing so will edify me. I don’t know why I didn’t seek Jesus in the Word of God but hopefully I will never again fail to do so.
As I spent time in the Word this morning and prayed in the Spirit I realized that I need to behave like a Christian and allow others to think and feel what they think and feel. I can’t change the mind of others. I can only control and change my own behavior. So I am calm and joyful today because of the Word of God and because I listened to the Spirit and was obedient. By the grace of God, I will never throw myself another pity party.